So when Shyla and I got our tax return we decided to splurge a bit and replace our second-hand furniture. With that comes cleaning up the living room and removing all of the clutter so we could make room to get the old TV stand out and the new one in.
We got rid of a old TV stand, the old bulky TV, and a recliner that I'm fairly certian God used on his 7th day. It is amazing how much it has opened up this room. I used to avoid coming in the living room because I hated all the clutter and mess, so Shyla and I never really had a place to hang out and relax... but now we do... and we do hang out quite a bit! Oddly enough, it's been really relaxing just hanging out.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
About that baby/life thing
So I haven't really posted much since Olyvea was born. I think part of the blogger in my just kinda tapered off and didn't want to do it as much but I'm also busy. Work is very well, if not time-consuming by the way.
So.... I never really wanted to be a father. I didn't think I had the chops for it, I knew I was difficult growing up, and as a person I have a lot of flaws. So I could just never see bringing someone into my life that would be so greatly shaped by me.
The first time I held Olyvea in my arms - best feeling I ever had, I think it's the best feeling anyone can have. But it doesn't stay, that's for sure. The getting up at odd hours, the crying, the arguing between Shyla and I, the bills, the animals, the small home... it all starts to add up and weigh you down and I started to feel like it was more trouble then it was worth, that I had gotten way in over my head and in some aspects that may be true.
But now as Olyvea grows older and Shyla and I find a balance it's getting back to good and Olyvea developing her personality only enriches it. Now she's getting to where she can recognize and track things it's just awesome to come home and hear that little squeel when she sees my face, or hear her kinda whimper because she wants someone to hold her, or (I'm so sorry about this kiddo, you can beat your dad up for it when you're old enough) to see her face get really red and she grunts and poops. Regardless of what you do to her, there's a smile on her face 30 seconds later.
I don't think I could of asked for a better first child, but I have to be careful not to expect this of all of my children (as much as I would love for them to all be as tempered as Olyvea is). So yeah... life is good.
So.... I never really wanted to be a father. I didn't think I had the chops for it, I knew I was difficult growing up, and as a person I have a lot of flaws. So I could just never see bringing someone into my life that would be so greatly shaped by me.
The first time I held Olyvea in my arms - best feeling I ever had, I think it's the best feeling anyone can have. But it doesn't stay, that's for sure. The getting up at odd hours, the crying, the arguing between Shyla and I, the bills, the animals, the small home... it all starts to add up and weigh you down and I started to feel like it was more trouble then it was worth, that I had gotten way in over my head and in some aspects that may be true.
But now as Olyvea grows older and Shyla and I find a balance it's getting back to good and Olyvea developing her personality only enriches it. Now she's getting to where she can recognize and track things it's just awesome to come home and hear that little squeel when she sees my face, or hear her kinda whimper because she wants someone to hold her, or (I'm so sorry about this kiddo, you can beat your dad up for it when you're old enough) to see her face get really red and she grunts and poops. Regardless of what you do to her, there's a smile on her face 30 seconds later.
I don't think I could of asked for a better first child, but I have to be careful not to expect this of all of my children (as much as I would love for them to all be as tempered as Olyvea is). So yeah... life is good.
Great minds reference XKCD
jeffrey: if I ever start typing weird things in chat, like more weird than normal
please ask me to check what I'm drinking
they give out free drinks here including beer and they're all over in a pile on the floor
I just realized I had grabbed something from over there and started drinking it without looking at what it was
/notsmart
Jeffrey: yes
Justin: .....
I'm... not sure what to say to that
Jeffrey: it's hard to tell whether some of these people are drunk or not
Justin: why..... beer?
I don't get it
no... wait
I do get it
lol
Justin: lol
Jeffrey: nice
Keep in mind we posted those XKCD links perhaps 5 seconds apart. Great minds indeed ;)
Monday, February 9, 2009
What to do... what to do
I'm horrible with HTML, I admit it. My knowledge lies in Active Directory and computer networks. So far the new blog home isn't bad but I do miss the theme I had with WordPress.. I haven't found one nearly as nice as it was.
I need to write more on here too but for the most part I've been coming home from work the last two weeks exhausted. It should mellow out in a week or so when everyone fully settles and and gets used to the changes we made with the server moves but we'll see.
I need to write more on here too but for the most part I've been coming home from work the last two weeks exhausted. It should mellow out in a week or so when everyone fully settles and and gets used to the changes we made with the server moves but we'll see.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
New home!
Not sure if anyone got the update I put out before Bluehost closed my account, but here's the new blog. I'll eventually get around to updating it.
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